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It's a pretty tough job to get me out of bed these days. You'd probably give yourself a nice pat on the back if you ever succeeded in getting me out of bed at 8 or 9 am.

The slightest sign of annoyance (on my face and voice) could be sensed whenever I am awaken 'unjustly' in the morning or anytime before 12 pm for that matter. My boyfriend knows this because when he mistakenly calls me in the morning (when I am extremely asleep--Im talking stage 3 to 4 sleep), and my mother hands me the phone and Im half awake, he could hardly hear me. I could hear the nervous tone from the other end of the line asking "Still sleeping?" and he'd proceed with whatever he has to say and would bid goodbye. And I'll forget about it all and return to my recently interrupted sleep.

That's perfectly understandable. To me.

I saw "We are Marshall" in HBO yesterday. I wasn't able to finish it (heck i wasnt even able to start the film), but I learned a great many valuable lessons--one, that Matthew McConaughey and Matthew Fox still look hot in their coaching uniforms...yep. haha. Kid. That there's always a first time for everything. That there's always a way to get up from every hearbreaking fall. That we shouldn't let our own griefs, our own fears--our very own monsters to keep us from moving forward. From doing what we HAVE to do.

When you have time, you should see it. It's a film worth seeing. Inspiring.

So, maybe it's a bad job well done waking me up in the morning but it really is not as hard as it sounds. I'll get annoyed, yes, but who cares about that? If you have to say something really important to me at 5 am, then go tell me. Earl, he knows that I get annoyed in the morning but he still calls me up, all because he wants to tell me that he loves me before he leaves the house for his duty. Because he wants to hear my voice and to remind me to take good care of myself while he's away. He's doing it regardless of the fact that I don't want sleep interruptions. And I truly appreciate that (I'm just less annoyed). :p

It's all about changing the way you think and defying certain things if you really want to.

Think of the time when you had to confess to your one true love that you love him/her. Think of that time when you had to apologize and you did not even know where to start but you pulled everything off quite well. Think of that time when you had to tell your mother that you accidentally broke her favorite vase. Think of that time when you raised your hand in the class of the most insanely notorious professor you've ever encountered in college. Think of the time when you experienced your biggest disappointment and managed to let go of all sorrows and aches after a while...Think of those times.

It all takes courage. It's all YOU believing in yourself.

Marianne Williamson says it best:

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Well, your playing small definitely will not serve the world. Start by doing something you've been scared shitless of, perhaps?




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